Ok. So I've neglected this blog a little, but that's only because a very exciting thing happened.
Ok. So I didn't write about the very exciting thing. I'm a terrible blogger/Internet person/human being, I get it. So let me backtrack a little.
I left off at me getting a promotion at work to the role of technical operator and talking about how I was going to have to adjust my mindset to such a different job. Well, I've recently spent about two months doing another job. I was a trainee edit assistant on a new TV drama! The. Dream.
It was a brilliant job to be on too. Some trainees barely get to touch an Avid, but I was able to get properly stuck in. I was actually one of the assistants rather than just an observer. I learnt, hands on, an incredible amount. Everyone on the team was lovely and I couldn't have hoped for a more talented and skilled boss to show me the ropes of the job. I could go on and on about it (and on and on, trust me), but the much shorter story is that it absolutely sealed my desire to be in this industry, and to go freelance properly.
Sadly though, it came to an end. I had this vision in my head where once you got the first job, you wouldn't have to look back, but in my case this hasn't happened yet so for now I'm back technical operating, where it seems I have FORGOTTEN EVERYTHING. I had barely got to grips with the job before the placement, and it turns out if you don't do something for a while, you don't remember much of it. Re-learning also becomes that little bit more difficult when you've been on your dream job and have to come back from it. Don't get me wrong, Encore is where I learnt the foundations of the industry, it's a fantastic company and I'm so, so grateful for every opportunity they've given me. If I could stay there and be an editor, I would. But hey, comfort zones are for leaving right?
So, I can't say I wasn't a little disappointed that something else didn't come up straight away, and I've already had to deal with the disappointment of not getting a couple of other jobs I was interviewed for. Both of which would have been a huge deal to do. As ever though, God has had me prepared. In a previous life (and a previous blog to go with it), I had this bizarre notion in my head that I was going to be an actress. Let's say, it didn't go too well. I mean, I had an agent and went to auditions, but I was dealing with rejection after rejection after long periods of nothing. I often took it hard and I really take my hat off to those who persevere with that career. I sometimes looks back and think what a waste of time and money and effort it was and how it should have just stayed as a hobby - but in reality the whole thing really toughened me up.
I mean, going back to my editing aspirations, these were big disappointments. I know exactly where I want to be, and to be honest, I want to be there now. In retrospect not getting those film placements (yes, feature film placements) is a much bigger deal than not getting those acting roles, but I've taken them less hard, and much less personally. I've still got itchy feet to get into the big bad world of freelancing (primarily on TV drama, but the odd feature wouldn't have hurt...) but I took those rejections a lot better for having been through so many earlier in life.
So, I'm still looking at that next step. I always will do, but I still have a good job. I carry on. I keep looking. Keep trusting that God has something lined up for me. For now I need to back to proving myself.
(No real 'message' coming through in this one. Just an update and account of how God still continues to work in my life and my work. Did I just hear a collective sigh of relief...?)
